As I feel..........

Like a rainbow, I have many shades,

Shades that merge and shades that stand distinct!

As I feel free,

Free enough to blow like air,

Free enough to flow like water,

I feel so tamed,

Like a bird in a cage

That yearns to spread its wings in the sky,

That yearns to taste the fruits in the forest!

As I stand tall,

Tall enough to touch the clouds,

Tall enough to have conquered the mountains,

I feel so small,

Like a little baby

That yearns for his mother’s arms,

That yearns for when not picked up or looked at!

As I feel strong,

Strong enough to have crossed the seven seas,

Strong enough to have turned the winds

I feel so fragile

Like a newborn baby

That cries when pushed out of the womb,

That cries with every unknown face or sound!

As I feel loved,

Loved enough to be surrounded by dear ones,

Loved enough to feel secure,

I feel revulsion

Like a rejected lover,

That loathes every love letter he wrote,

That loathes every verse he dedicated to the beloved!

As I look beautiful,

Beautiful enough to charm all,

Beautiful enough to create exquisiteness around,

I feel ugly

Like a dark soul

That detests goodness around,

That rejects radiance of divinity!

As I act kind,

Kind enough to comfort aching bodies,

Kind enough to pacify irate hearts,

I feel cruel

Like a piercing knife

That slays a chaste essence,

That betrays the trust and companionship!

Like a coin

I have two faces

Those always stay with me –

I cannot feel the warmth without the cold

And not love without revulsion.

I feel the fullness with the emptiness

And perfection with the flaw!!